01 July 2012

我的职业,我的责任


不知不觉,我离开这个博客已有半年。大家,还好吧?

也许是太久没来发泄了,感觉最近的生活非常压抑,不开心。
刚刚看回以前写的文章,感觉自己就算多伤心难过,都能乐观看待。现在呢?

有人说,你真是乐观,被别人说也能一笑置之。
有人说,你真是好笑,活得像个开心果没烦恼。
谁知道,微笑的背后,隐藏多少哀愁?

是否还能找回,以前轻易就能绽放的笑容?

谈谈课业吧。
不知是否幸运,读书很轻松,功课也不多。只怪自己拖三拖四,在最后关键赶个半死。
读书的朋友?大家走的路都不一样。没什么好说。

谈谈工作吧。
忘了自己是否有提过,自己是一名教史地理科的补习老师。
当初会成为这科老师,是因为院长看上自己幽默的个性和好学的态度。
但现在,我不知自己是否还能胜任。
学生考试将近,但学生没有紧张感。老师在那边瞎紧张有个屁用?
学生成绩揭晓,学生家长开始埋怨。老师在那边只好默默忍受。
什么三角形理论,什么教书技巧,什么用心动作,统统都归零。

就像以前大人告诉我读书是多么多么的重要,我也会想要偷懒一下。何况现在的小孩?

真怀念以前,想偷懒就偷懒,没顾虑。
真怀念以前,想去玩就去玩,没顾虑。
真怀念以前,像白痴就白痴,没顾虑。

现在?
每件事都要成为好榜样。
每件事都要有责任感。
每件事都要顾形象。
突然觉得自己有双沉重的肩膀。

。。。

今天,纯粹想发发牢骚,也没什么大不了。也许最近受的气太多了,想发泄一番。
受了闷气,就做些快乐的事,让自己开心些。
抱怨完了,还是要收拾心情,走回工作岗位。
有些学生,还是很赏心悦目,很可爱乖巧。
毕竟这是我的职业,我的责任。

神啊,请赐我力量,让我留下来的动力。

也许当初选了不一样的路,现在就有不同的结果。

27 November 2011

那真的是爸爸吗?


今天,依旧是郁闷的一天。心中并没有放下遗失的东西。

我恨,美好的时光离开得太快。
我恨,自己太过容易相信别人。
我恨,自己的警惕心如此微弱。
我更恨,自己的粗心大意,让别人有机得趁。

我是个大笨蛋!

如今抱怨并不能改变什么。我只能祈祷短期内有物归原主的可能性。
我承认,我对那小偷还抱有期望。我突然觉得自己好天真好傻。
但,我还能做什么?
听天由命?还是坐以待毙?
我不想!我想揪出凶手。虽然机会很渺茫。可是至少,机会渺茫代表说还有一线希望。

朋友说,大雨后就会有彩虹。我希望,是真的。我希望,属于我的东西可以赶快回来。


今天,跟家人一起去问米。问问爸爸现在怎样。
我觉得很奇怪。当那人开口时,我并没有感觉到爸爸。我觉得很陌生。
但妈妈说,宁可信其有,不可信其无。

我想问,那真的是爸爸吗?但是我得不到答案。
我只知道,亲爱的爸爸就在心里。
去问米,也只不过是让家人得到安心。

到现在,每每想起爸爸,我都好想哭。
不行啊,李怡菱!我可是乐天派的美人。怎么最近都在散发负面能量呢?

神啊,请赐我力量,让我勇敢快乐地活下去吧!

26 November 2011

just a fate


happiness around me this month.
i have everything i want. i do anything i want. i go anywhere i want. all of them are just so perfect.

BUT, happiness end at yesterday. why?
did i mentioned that i had just change my phone? xperia mini pro? no. i didn't mentioned to you guys. well, lets me tell you guys something. ineedtoshoutout!!!o0o


wow, it is so wonderful. and i just bought it last two week. or i can say no enough than two week.
and, so luckily it had been stolen. as long with my wallet which full of my important details. ireallyneedtoshoutout!!! o0o


dear god, please make to world full of peace.
dear god, please punish all the bad guys.
dear god, please make the happiness won't end too fast.
dear god, please, please protect good person.

dear god, can i ask you something? did i do wrong? are you punishing me? can i have second chance?
i want my things back T________________________________T

dear daddy, did you saw what happened that day? do you know who was he/ her? please give me some tips.
i wish the criminal will loss what he belongs. i wish he will get his punish as soon as possible.

isuperduperdoubletotallyextremelywanttoshoutout!! getalifefucker!! o0o

31 October 2011

100天


原来,爸爸的离开,已经有100天了。
原来,时间越久,越能冲淡一切。

我开始,没有那么想念爸爸了。我是不是很不孝啊?

那天的音乐,叮叮咚咚,让我想起送爸爸离开的那天。心中的悲哀不禁浮现。
我真的,好想哭。
每次到了那熟悉的地方,都会让我想起和爸爸的点点滴滴。心中的难过不禁浮现。
我真的,好想哭。
有时出外游玩,想起爸爸奋斗了一辈子,都没有好好游玩。心中的懊悔不禁浮现。
我真的真的,好想哭。

大家都说,爸爸最爱的人是我。一切都以我为重。其实我都知道。
但是,不孝的我,回报爸爸的爱却是如此微小。
我真的,很后悔。

如今,说什么也改变不了什么。
但愿在天堂的爸爸能快快乐乐,不再痛苦。
我希望,下辈子,还能成为爸爸的宝贝女儿。:]

活着的我们,会勇敢地走下去。

04 September 2011

A.C.E.R :)


hey hey there. delighted moods are now at surroundings. teehee :目
actuallyiamissleepingmoodnow=~= without wasting anytime, lets us straight to the point. teehee :目
dong dong dong dong qiang ~~happily introduce new member of my house: CoCo♥


actually dunno why i will choose brown colour. perhaps i think black colour is too common =~= but, also a thousand a hundred thousand a million thanks and appreciate to mummy queen. without daddy king, she still provide me anythings that i need, and also give me everything that i desire. thanks mum, really. i know that you do love me. and. you also know that how much i love you
skip. 
i think maybe next time i will updated a really photo of CoCo♥. so people, be patient ya :) mr.chou is now giving me an emergence call. therefore, i need to go now. 


last but not least, once again i would like to share a strawberry blueberry blackberry confidence punya leng lui ah moi's smile photo to end my post :)

good night world :B

31 August 2011

fairy in the fairytale

hello there. today is merdeka merdeka day. and i just stay at home doing my homework and doing my homework. i wish to go out and done my work at tuition there. but unfortunately i have no car =~=

is end of the august now. i should clear up my mess mind. dear daddy king was gone a month ago. and i still maintain the same. i really should be stronger, keep holding and do all my best. KEEP GOING! i know i can do it.

skip.

should share some enjoyable moment. sadness mood really not suitable for me. teehee :目 still remember my preview post:  departure? curious? i went to US last Monday. do not misunderstand. i just going a trip of Universal Studied but not United State. heehee :D

without wasting anytime. lets the photo tell the story :)

it was raining at the day

finally reach :3

if i rich i will make one :)

new york road

the road was an ocean before

the most scary and longer roller coaster =~=

i was a princess in there

expensive lunch =~=
F4 aka 4 first year

beloved teacher

we met panda :D

it was a memorable and tired day. phew. the roller coaster was an excited game. go through the fear and just do it. good try. everything was just perfect except the lunch. it cost me 10.80 Singapore dollar!! it sound reasonable but it is 25++ ringgit Malaysia!!Mc'D is more better than it T3T nevermind. really nevermind. totally nevermind. i can accept it T3T as a conclusion, i was a nice trip :)

last but not least, i will end my post with a stawberry bluberry confidence punya leng lui ah moi's photo :目 have a nice day guys.

想念我的年少轻狂,无忧无虑。

29 August 2011

departure


away from reality and entering the fairytale.