给爸爸的信 #1

爸爸，今天以后，你就真真地离开我们了。

今天，我和哥哥一起送你到火化场。天空下着雨。我想，应该是连老天爷都为你这个好爸爸，好丈夫的离开而伤心。我们大家都没有说话，没有表情。事实就是这样，我们已经没有爸爸了。妈妈故作镇定，哥哥必须坚强，而我却什么都做不到。

爸爸，
我很想哭，但是却哭不出来。可能眼泪已经流完了。
爸爸，
我很想和你一起离开，但是我没有那种勇气。

爸爸，
我知道你是爱我们的。我们也很爱很爱你。
你不必再害怕，你就安心地离开。
你不必再烦恼，那些可恶的恶魔不会再为你带来痛苦。
你也不必担心，我们会好好地生活。

爸爸，
我好难过，从今以后，没有机会再喊你一声爸爸。
我好难过，从今以后，没有机会再紧紧拥抱你。
我好难过，从今以后，没有机会再向你撒娇。
爸爸，我真的真的好难过。

爸爸，
你现在过得好吗？家里少了你真的好奇怪。那种空虚，那种寂静。我真的不知道要如何形容。这样的情况，令我感到非常害怕。我讨厌我自己是如此的胆小。

想想以前是多么的快乐。那是一种简单的幸福。而我却，不曾珍惜。

还记得，我们一起看电视笑得失态的模样。
还记得，我们一起抓老鼠的乐趣。
还记得，我怕黑你陪伴着我的时光。
还记得，你总是准时送饭给我的温馨。
还记得，我感冒了你为我操心的模样。
还记得，我晚归你为我等门的时候。
还记得，你每次责骂我的粗枝大叶。
还记得，你每次都哆嗦我是个肮脏猫。
还记得，你要我减肥而骂我是大肥婆。

但这一切一切，再也不能从来。

爸爸，我真的好想你。

爸爸，对不起

今天，是个晴天霹雳的一天。我不知道要怎样去面对。我亲爱的爸爸离开了我。

眼泪止不住，但却改变不了什么。

我恨，我什么都做不到。

我恨，恐惧占据了我的心。

我希望，奇迹会出现。

我希望，这只是一场梦。

我希望，时光能够倒流。

我后悔，自我懂事以来，没有紧紧地拥抱爸爸。

我后悔，自我懂事以来，没有重视爸爸的关心。

我后悔，自我懂事以来，没有认真地聆听爸爸。

我后悔，自我懂事以来，没有好好地和爸爸说话。

我后悔，自我懂事以来，没有乖乖地听爸爸的话。

我后悔，自我懂事以来，没有真诚地感谢爸爸对我的付出。

我更后悔，自我懂事以来， 没有诚实地向爸爸说我爱你。

还记得，小时候，我总爱像跟屁虫那样黏着爸爸。

还记得，小时候，爸爸都会把最好的留给我。

可恶的我，只用冷冷的背影面对爸爸。

可恶的我，只会忽视爸爸的感受。

可恶的我，只会敷衍爸爸的关心。

可恶的我，不曾关心爸爸的感受。

可恶的我，不曾达到爸爸的要求。

可恶的我，到失去时才会后悔。

我还有好多好多事没为爸爸做。

我还没好好地让爸爸享清福。

我还没好好地带爸爸去看世界。

我还没好好地让爸爸做他想做的事。

我还没好好地教爸爸驾新买的汽车。

我还没好好地驾着车子带爸爸去兜风。

但是，一切都太迟了。

我很想爸爸，但爸爸再也不会回来了。

我想说，爸爸对不起。我真的真的真的很爱你。

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uncontrolled temperature

hello people. phew. is full of dust here. such a long time didn't updated my sweet little blog. sorry.

what a lovely month of the year. June. iheartJunealots!!! as some people know, berry confidence punya leng lui ah moi was born in this lovely month. every happy things happened in this month.  but i didn't even updated a post. shameonme=~= nevermind. really nevermind. totally nevermind. i will compensate all of them today. teehee :目

as i said at my preview post thanks to moi sis celebrate my big day for me. and now i wanna to thanks my teacher for celebrate my birthday. i do happy with everything you all did. cake, presents, surprise. although didn't took much picture but still, thanks for everything ♥

erm... did i mentioned our beloved Lee's family had a new member? no? heehee :3 without wasting any time. let me introdue to all of you!!!

heeheeheehee :3 ladies and gentlemen, please welcome my baibai♥ with fully pleasure. (screaminmax!!!)

fast go buy toto :3

mummy queen already send away the little deer and change it to viva. mummy queen is strawberry blueberry blackberry considerate for us. she said the little deer is dangerous to drive sumore convenient and safety is important than anything. heart you lots mummy queen♥♥♥

with the convenient of baibai♥, i am now more dare going far place. just like yesterday, i pass by 1U, Mutiara and going Sunway Giza Mall to enjoy the fantastically delicious snowflake. iknowiamferocious:B

i think i am a lots of over recently. especially since i have baibai♥ i should control abit a lots =~= 

never thought that i will go there without any reason. 

never thought that my thinking change blank when going to meet the person. 

never thought that i will ignore the most important safety when driving to there. 

never thought that it was just a gossip before.

ifeeldisgustingtomyself=~= i swear for to moon, for the star, for the sun, for the cloud, for the rainbow, for the wind, for the rain. no more uncontrolled LEE YEE LENG exist because of the person. i swear it sincerely.

skip.

oh yeah. almost forget. i need apologize to moi sis, shernice pei shan. sorry for not attending your birthday party.you know i have a dancing competition right? and i know you sure know you are in my heart. heehee:目  

talking about the dancing competition, this is the first time i try to dance with the chair. do you know what i mean? brilliant you sure will know what i talking about. my teacher and i were practising until the middle of the night everyday. sacrifice our sleeping time and go through a restless moment. hopefully we able to have the chance to perform at Tiara Beach next month. wish me luck guys :)

today went to make my passport born. yipee! i am going to US at August. i will try my best to capture lots of beautiful scene and the picture of berry beautiful punya leng lui ah moi. heehee :3 

i wish my hair can grow faster and has a heavy heavy feel punya fringe. i think i almost become a botak ah moi. i am serious T3T and my hair now change to curly curly hair and i hate it. sumore the black hair grow campur with the orange hair. i need call 1Fm because i really beh tahan!!! i need reponding. =~=

should stop my complain now and start work. i am still fighting with my assignment. tomorrow is the dead line and i am going to die. zZz.  good night good morning world.

the more you grow up, the more money you need. life ain't simple at all =~=

fabulously 18 me :3

happy earlier birthday to me. first of all, thanks moi sis celebrate my birthday for me yesterday. i do touch :')

moi sis said that yesterday we all went to Giza Mall s' Full House for a high tea. i didn't suspect anything. really didn't suspect anything. just think that do we need go so far? 0.o?

without wasting any time. lets the photo tell the STORY :3

creamy :3

thanks wei spoil my name =~=

the whole cake is mine :3

charlie ho ♥

xiaomin yap ♥

shernise pei shan ♥

vivienne ng ♥

bachilization cam-whoring

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once again thanks to moi dearest sis ♥ i love you guys!! ♥

i may not look excited but i do feel surprise plus happy. didn't even thought that you guys will earlier celebrate for me. as we know now all of us are busy with our study and work. 

less meet with each other. less bachilization with each other. i do miss those memorable and joyful moment. bachilizationmoresuitableforme=~=

my thankful to you all can't use any word to describe. last but not least, thanks moi sis ♥

teehee :3

p/s: i am totally regret with the shirt i wear yesterday. give me some tips mah moi sis. celebrate birthday must leng leng one T3T
p/p/s: 8 more days to go!! ♥♥♥

happy teacher day

hello people. once again i am now updating my blog. how are you guys? heehee :3

such a wonderful day today. you know what i mean? teehee :目 yeah. today are teacher day. i receive lots of wishes. and i heart it :3

yesterday went Putrajaya for a awards ceremony. ihearthatJayChouwasshootinghismovienearbythere!(screamwithmaxvolume!!!) everyone wear formal to there. of course, include me. heehee shyshy :3 congratulations to those who receive awards. gong hei gong hei! you are the best!!
without wasting anytime, lets picture tell the story :目

the scene that view from the building

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the day look of the building

the night look of the building

MP's teachers

my beloved teacher ♥

last but not least, happy teacher day world ♥

do i look professional? :目

im okay

hi there. is May now. how you guys? i'm okay. i really okay. totally just fine.
such a long time didn't updated my blog. are you guys freaking miss me? i think you guys do miss me because i miss my little bloggie too :目

okays. back to the topic. still remember my previous post? i said i will update about my study. therefore, i will share some of it in this post.

erm.. where should i start?
as i said my reopen school date is at 1st of May. until now my study life started almost 2 weeks. honestly, i am now lacking of strength. sleepless. restless. 24 hours a day are not enough for me. i have many thing to do. as a part time student, my life is really enrich. or maybe i can say more than enrich. but this kind of tired i feel satisfied.

now is 1230am. and later 9am i have an exam. and i just finish studied one chapter. am i too stress recently? rushing assignment (actuallydidntstartonepageatall=~=), study hard for exam, work hard in job. less fooling around, less bahilization, less meet friend. believe me, i do miss you guys :'(

this kind of mood really not suitable for me. because as everyone know i am berry confidence punya leng lui ah moi! i know i can do it :目

should change some relax topic. just now went to Kajang with teacher. have a dancing night. sometimes dance some sweat out from your body really can make you feel better. sumore can forget some stressful troublesome. heehee. i know i am the best :目 besides dancing, the main reason i went there is to support my teacher's singing contest. although she had fail but she is good in our heart. we will support you no matter how. so, cheer up. smile for your life :目

oh yeah almost forget last Thursday was my teacher's birthday, mrs.Siow. she is our pandawoman at tuition there. lets wish her happy birthday.

happy birthday ♥

so match her :目

okay. i really need some rest now. therefore, good night world ♥

p/s: after May lovely June is coming. and i love June :3